so to entirely close a door without even looking through it would be plain stupid.
So I’ve been thinking about college and, even though I have to admit I fear my chances of succeeding at resitting the year are equal to my chances of suddenly getting up and completing a marathon, I’ve decided it’s something I need to try and do.
I’ve made a new friend who makes me miss intellectual stimulation and creating which is kind of weird but I even started writing again (and not the kind where I just spout every negative thought onto a page). Therefore
I feel like I need to explore various routes of fulfilling those needs and if one option is college, then I have to know whether it’s the RIGHT option. I’m not scared of anything beyond my own lethargy for life anymore,
Plus I’m planning to move to Manchester with a friend the year after next, so I may aswell be productive with the time until then and if I do this well, who knows, maybe I’ll end up somewhere else all over again.
At the end of the day, what’s the worst that can happen? I drop out again? I’d be more ashamed not to try at all than I would be to fail entirely.
Everyday is such an excellent day to be alive that I really can’t afford to miss anything. I can see all these paths to the future and I don’t see why I can’t walk more than one for now.
Not quite sure why I felt the need to say so much but it’s just flowing from me, I suppose I’m just trying to reaffirm my own thoughts in the presence of someone who can help proof read them.
Have a good day,